Tuesday, July 21, 2015

Pieces of a Broken Mirror



We are two shards

Of a broken mirror

Fragmented, with jagged edges

Reflecting each other and the world

Clear yet unclear

Seeing the old

Reflecting the new

We come with our baggage

Of the past we belonged to

All that we have seen

All that we have shown

We fit together

Yet we don't

Do we pierce life

Or does life pierce through us?

Our rough edges almost as is

In symmetry, in sync

Yet so different, so unlike

We have both witnessed our share

Each different from the other

Yet so starkly alike

We connect in pain

We connect in sorrow

But we'll advance in joy

For a better tomorrow

The Conflicted Mind

There are two thoughts
Conflicting, tearing me from within
In two different directions
To be or not to be
One of the eternal questions 
Of life and life beyond death
Of death and love beyond death
Do I wish to be alone in sorrow
Or sorrowful in a crowd
Look here it comes again
Another one of those depression bouts
I wish to come out of its grasp
Break free from its leash
Holding me back, holding me tight
Controlling my thoughts
But at times each effort rots
It pulls me down
To the abyss of hellish feelings
Influences and confuses
All my dealings
Will I be able to pull myself back?
I guess, like I always do
But the route to it seems hazy
My will seems reluctant and lazy
I need you to call out to me
I may or may not come
But it's comforting to know you care
No matter how crazy it gets
You shall always be there
Will you, won't you?
I guess, time will tell
Until then glorious seems the thought
Maybe that is what will help me sort
The muddle in my mind
To get out of the grind
All that matters right now
Is to know you're right behind
With a supporting hand
And a comforting smile
Leading the way
To take me ahead in life
Another mile ...

Tuesday, July 8, 2014

CROSSROADS

CROSSROADS

There are chances we take
Certain choices we make
Some turn out greater than imagined
Through some only regrets we rake

One is treaded upon quite gladly
We had wanted this one oh so badly
We sweated and cried, struggled and got fried
Our tears and sweat made the victory gleam bright

Days passed..turned into months
Experiences and moments were amassed
Lots was learnt lots was passed
Some gave joy while through some gloom was cast

Friends were made friends forgotten
New bonds built while some became rotten
Memories left scars that served as reminders
Some unresolved emotions soon became binders

Time passed as it always does
Monotony and drudgery made everyday quite a fuss
What once gave joy now felt tasking
Glories felt fake in which we were basking

Eyes and mind wandered in search of something fresh
The life state of others seemed more attractive
Picture perfect memories sealed and delivered
On those other moments our eyes and minds lingered

This path now felt strange, unwelcoming
What we had chosen lay ignored
Would the other path have been happier and more becoming
What if, what could have been - insecurities roared

Had the other path been chosen 
would we have the same joy
As we see with others
And wistfully we sigh

We realize then suddenly
Our mind plays games
Had the other path been chosen in fact
Our insecurities would have remained just the same ....

-Aastha Katyal

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

I See...You Saw!


I SEE… YOU SAW

There’s something I see…a lot of things actually
It’s all of what you saw, but a lot differently

I see a highly qualified, intelligent one with dreams and wishes
You saw someone who’ll wash your clothes and do the dishes

I see a beautiful, generous and compassionate soul within
You saw an overweight, or short girl who will never fit in

I see someone who chases after what she believes in with all her might
You saw someone who reaches out for much more than she can bite

I see someone who’s strong, independent, advancing at a self-assured pace
You saw an opportunity, a wily woman you hope to beat, to ‘put her in her place’.

I see a woman confident of her body and herself
You saw a ‘slut’ who rightfully belongs on a domestic shelf

I see one who’s got a charming, eloquent way with the words
You saw a smooth talker, rubbishing away all her efforts

I see one who extends herself beyond domesticity and carves out a niche
You saw she crossed her ‘limits’ and needs to be put on a leash

I see she’s a people’s person, mingling and making friends galore
You saw she’s ‘loose’, without morals, close to a ‘whore’

I see she’s fearless, tough against the tide
You saw and pushed her down with all your might

I see one who’s a lioness, fighting for her rights
You saw she’s ‘dented and painted’ and so must give up the fight.

I see she’s trying her best to selflessly manage two worlds
You saw she has no business to have another world

I see her struggle everyday to make a place for herself
You saw and decided there must be none of her self

I see her moulding a second brave one as a mother
You saw and stomped on the hope of another

I see them struggling each day to live full, enriching and rewarding lives
You saw and decided they deserve nothing more than to be mothers and wives

There’s something I see…a lot of things actually
It’s all of what you saw, but a lot differently!

Friday, January 25, 2013

Celebrating Republic Day

‎26 January is not about a holiday, or about certain vermin across the country abusing women's rights or about corruption or about useless politicians or about Modi vs. Gandhi! It's a day to celebrate those soldiers who do their duty to the utmost care standing in areas of -30 degree temperatures, going without food and even water for days altogether, ready to fight for a complete nation where they don't even know 98% of the people! It's a day to celebrate that army which does not dissent against the system, it is a day to celebrate those soldiers who lay down their lives leaving their families behind in order to protect those very people who crib and complain about the country. It is a day to celebrate people like my Dad who have stayed away most of my life, not watching me grow up and missing out on certain landmarks in my life just so he could do his duty, and serve his nation! So despite all the negativity going around and the wrongdoings that have been happening, I shall still respect this day and all those whom it attempts to respect!

So Happy Republic day! Be proud of your nation, whatever it is, however it is, and if you don't like it, be the change instead of just sitting back and complaining!

Saturday, December 29, 2012

Jaunpur ka Ravinder

Extremely distressed by the news of the rape victim’s death, I walked out of office today evening and went straight to Bandstand – the sea calms me down; makes me reflective and happy. So I decided to give it a try again, to check if it could still permeate my state of utter frustration, anger and grief at everything going on around me, at the country I live in, a country I claimed I loved no matter what, at one point of time.
And so I went and walked, for a really long time. Turns out, my expectations were met indeed. I did come back a calmer, slightly happier soul, and the reason for this was one street vendor, Ravinder from Jaunpur whom I happened to speak to just by chance. I asked him where, pray, would I find a dustbin across the long stretch of the Bandstand promenade where a huge sign forbidding littering was put up, with no ambiguity whatsoever of its commandment. The irony was that not even a single, small dustbin was provided anywhere along the entire route. And thus, in response to my query, began the outpouring of frustration, probably pent up inside the guy for quite some time. I, henceforth speak on his behalf, mostly quoting him word for word, and thus explaining my reason to return home a calmer soul.
P.S. The language may get slightly coloured for a few people henceforth, but please excuse me for these are views of the man, and in order to remain true to his sentiment I shall quote him exactly.

            This is a chutiya place with chutiya people living around. They could make up an entire Bandstand but haven’t even provided for a single dustbin around the area. And so you see these huge houses, with rich people living inside? They don’t care whether people all around litter this promenade or not, but what they do care about are us poor vendors who are trying to earn an honest living. And thus, everyday, complaints are made, money is fed to the police who come around and pick up a few odd vendors from here, making sure they do not return, and thus shutting out an honest man’s way to support himself and his family. And then they talk of crimes being committed. Now, out of frustration and poverty if crimes won’t be committed then what else will happen? I try so hard every day to sell these peanuts, and chana jor garam etc. and ensure a decent income for my wife and me, but every day I battle the fear that today may be my fate won’t be with me. This government is a chutiya government. Laws are made not for welfare of people but just to harass us poor people, and for a show of authority. Why do you think criminals move around fearless? Because, the government knows that one gun totting criminal would do them and their “incomes” much more harm, than would a peaceful common man. And so they unleash their authority and ‘’laws’’ on the common man. He is supposed to adhere to laws, to respect them, while the chutiya government and the rich work hand in hand to ensure smooth, comfortable lives for themselves. Now take the case of that girl from Delhi who got gang raped just last week. The poor girl has passed away. But do you think the rapists will be punished? No way. Nothing is going to happen. Because this chutiya government only wants to save their backsides. When I have a son of my own, I am going to teach him the right way to live. I am going to teach him how to respect women, and be a good human being. Just the way my father taught me. You know how I got married? My wife was not getting a nod of approval from anyone else, for either there were exorbitant demands for dowry, or they had some or the other problem with her appearance, or they would just not bother to even reply back after going for a meeting. My father went just once to see her, for in my village the elders go and approve the girl, and immediately said yes. He just had one condition- there will be no exchange of any sort of dowry but since they insisted he agreed to let them give us whatever they sought fit, but within a certain limit. He did not ask for a single penny. That is the kind of lesson I shall impart to my son, when I have children. It’s so sad what happened to the girl in Delhi. But these things happen every day and will happen till this chutiya government continues to not care about us common people.

This is the anguish and frustration that got unleashed from this common man of India. And it was extremely satisfying to see that there is still a man around who thinks like this. To be colloquial, here’s someone from a “lower social strata” of society who can think more progressively, clearly and sensibly than more than half the ‘’cream of society’’.

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Open Letter to the Delhi Woman CM

Dear Chief Minister of the national capital, Delhi.

I am not sure whether you will even read this email, or even acknowledge it in any way or not. But as a worried citizen of this city, this country, and as a woman who is concerned for her own safety, and for the safety of her friends, family, and her own mother (for as you shall notice rapists that are animals claiming to be 'men' do not discriminate on the basis of age), I am writing this out to you to voice my opinion which is otherwise not given a forum in the state or corporate controlled media that we have today claiming to be the fourth estate of our so called democracy.

Yes, India is a democracy where all castes, classes, and everyone is supposed to be granted equal rights (hence reservation policies galore) and given respect by the laws, except for this poor creature called the woman. Women across classes and castes and social structures suffer the harsh, disgusting, appalling attitudes of men who think they are God's gift to earth and have the right to do whatever they please with whomsoever they please. And who has shaped such attitudes in them? Our patriarchal society, our country's callous laws, poorly structured law enforcement agencies, with no real authority (or even if they do, they don't seem to care much except for filling their protruding stomachs, chewing tobacco, and watching lethargically as the city continues at its own pace).

The frequent sentence given for rape is 10 years of imprisonment, or in certain cases the death penalty. In the capital city of a country which fights and debates over FDI but cannot claim to guarantee basics like food, water, electricity and housing to its own citizens, and guarantee safety to its women (read Honour killings, physical and mental abuse, and the worst of all RAPE), rapes occur at the rate of approximately 635 per year (as of 2012, according to a report in Hindustan Times, dated 18.12.2012). And this figure is probably only those of registered cases, known to the authorities; it does not even include cases where girls, and women are harrassed no end, till at times some of them even go to the extreme of committing suicide to end the painful misery their lives become. What claim does such a country have to call itself a budding superpower and make nuclear deals and debate over FDI on one hand, even as a girl, through no fault of her own, is brutally gang raped, and thrown out onto the streets of Delhi in the cold winter, half naked and in a degrading and horrific condition?

A rape is worse than murder. My biggest fear in life is not to die, because that shall just mean my misery and joys of this life, as I know them, are over. I do not need to suffer anymore. My biggest fear, my nightmare as a woman is to be raped. Because rape affects a woman mentally, physically, emotionally, and socially the most, since our narrow minded society with dogmatic ideas still tends to blame women for their predicament, and not those men who simply cannot keep it in their pants and do not have a strong enough value system to know right from wrong, humanity from torture. Women are blamed if they step out at night, if they step out early morning, if they are not clothed from head to foot in what is seen as ''proper attire'' by our country's distinguished leaders, if they so much as dare to say a word to any man who may be harassing them verbally, or if they take public transport to get home to their families. 

There is a complete and chaotic breakdown of priorities in this nation, which needs to be addressed ASAP or the country's social decline is not far. And believe you me, that does not make a country a superpower, however much you claim the GDP to be growing in numbers.

So first of all, keep castration as a punishment for rapists. Hurt them where it hurts the most. Only then, with such severe extreme punishments, will the future rapists be deterred. Death penalty and life imprisonment doesn't even begin to scratch the surface of what a heinous crime they commit. And do not say, what of those accused wrongly. We have a judiciary to make sure no one is accused wrongly, and even it that happens, there are even then murder and other such cases where wrong accusations lead to punishment. But punishment is nevertheless meted out. In Saudi, rapists are stoned to death publicly. That is the kind of humiliation and punishment such men deserve, not measly life imprisonments.

 Make stringent laws and ensure they are properly adhered to (try not completely curbing women's freedom, please, as you do so). Set up fast track courts for rape cases- a long drawn out battle for justice wherein again and again the victim is made to revisit the scene of the horrendous act that was done to her is more mental and emotional torture than we can even imagine. And please, please set up a non-corrupt, efficient transport system in this city. Do not say, there are autos because the auto drivers REFUSE to go anywhere if there is traffic, bleak hope of subsequent fare, too much distance, too much time, too much effort, basically refuse any fare that required them to ferry the passenger anywhere inconvenient to them, also charging exorbitant rates while doing so, not adhering to the meter system. Last I checked the public transport was to 'transport the public from one place to another' and not to give them extra headache and inconvenience. Half the time, people do not get transport, as was the case with this girl who waited to get an auto back to her home, for over an hour and a half, until ultimately she decided to climb aboard the fateful bus, that too late in the night. 

Please, I implore you to make this case exemplary, by providing prompt justice, and strict, severe punishment to the rapists so that this evil is curbed otherwise, the future is extremely dark and hopeless, full of anguish, fear, misery and possibly dissent, even.



--
Regards,
A concerned citizen and a woman becoming increasingly paranoid for her safety.

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

The Pleasure of Pain

- Aastha Katyal

“Hey Honey!”

“Hi Rajeev. How was your day at office today?”

“It was Okay. Remember that presentation I had been preparing for, for that Colgate account. That was today.”

“Oh Yeah! How’d it go?”

“Good, Good. At least I think it went well. Next week will tell for sure, when we know whether we are getting the work or not.”

“Well, I am sure you will.”

“Sheila, What’s for dinner?”

“I was thinking let’s go out tonight. I just don’t feel like cooking. I am so exhausted with all the work at school. That Principal of ours is such an inefficient, confused, old hag.”

“Oh Lord! What happened now?”

“Yaar, She is the most inefficient and uneffective administrator I have ever come across in my 20 years in the teaching profession. So after telling us to prepare lesson plans in a certain way, and constantly berating us to send them across as soon as we could, basically ensuring our one short month of holiday was effectively ruined for all of us, she today tells us in the needlessly three hour long meeting, that she doesn’t want them that way and that we have to redo everything following a new format which will ensure more clarity and accountability, apparently.”

“Why the hell, do you not leave this stupid job? I earn enough for both of us.”

“Please Rajeev, don’t start again. You know I like being financially independent. Besides I have some good friends at the school. If it gets too much for me, I’ll look for other options.”

“Fine. Whatever! So where are we going?”

“Well, I thought we could go try out that new place that had opened up in the Vasant Vihar market. It’s called Soi Thai. It seems very interesting.”

“Acha fine. Just give me half an hour to get ready and stuff and then we can leave.”

*

“I liked the food, nahi, Sheila?”

“Yes, it was really good. I especially loved the Pad Thai noodles. But I can never forget the ones we had in Thailand, last month. They were so delicious.”

“Yeah. That was a fantastic place.”

“Hmm. It was nice of Shekhar to get us those great rooms at his friend’s hotel at a discounted rate. When’d he join your office honey? A month or so back na? You were so wary of it when he offered to do it for us and I told him to go ahead with the discount deal, if he could. He’s a nice chap, isn’t he?”

“Hmm... Yeah. Speaking of Shekhar, Sheila there’s something wrong with him I think.”

“Why do you say so?”

“The man seems slightly crazy to me. I mean he’s alright, I guess. Respects me a lot, and looks up to me and stuff. But he’s begun telling me about him and his wife, Richa, and it’s just all so unbelievably astounding. It just makes me ... uncomfortable.”

“What does he tell you?”

*

“Sir, May I come in?”

“Yes Shekhar come in. I was just finishing the pitch on this account. The boss is really after my life on this one.”

“Yeah! I think it’s really important to him. He must be getting some sort of kickbacks or something. He He.”

“Haha, Yeah probably. So how are you settling in, in this city? Do you like Delhi?”

“Well, it’s so different from Chandigarh. I mean I’ve lived there for 10 years, and am so used to the kind of life that place has that I am feeling quite out of place in this city right now. It’s more quiet and there was this community feeling in the area that I used to live in, the society in Panchkula. Here it’s all so big, and every body’s too busy to even spare you a moment. It can be quite daunting in fact. And what’s the deal with these constant traffic jams sir?”

“Haha! Yeah that’s quite a pain. Especially, at this time of the year. One rain and the damn city has a breakdown.”

“I told my wife to avoid taking the car to work. It’s much easier that way. Anyway how far is her office? She can easily take the metro to and fro.”

“Hmm. Where does your wife work again?”

“At this start up in Gurgaon sir. It’s called Fast Furnish. She’s done an MBA and she wanted to work with an MNC, but she thought it would be better to begin work here, while she scouts for good offers.”

“That’s good. So she’s gone all day? Do you guys get any time together what with your busy hours here?”

“Oh Yes Sir! I make her get up at 6:00 am so that she can cook my food and iron my clothes, before she leaves for work at 8:30 a.m.”

“What do you mean you make her ‘get up’?”

“Well, obviously she won’t wake up herself na? You are lucky to have a good devoted wife sir. Girls these days. They have no sense of homemaking and treat their husbands with no respect. All she cares about is her job and herself. I have to sometimes slap some sense into her.”

“What! When you say slap, you mean...”

“Oh No no Sir! It’s all playful. She knows I mean no harm. Now just the other day, she was ironing my underwear and she burned a small hole into it. Now how careless is that! Would she do that with her clothes? No, Never! Just because I don’t say anything to her, doesn’t mean she’ll treat me like shit, right? So I gave it to her. Nothing much, just a whip or two with my belt. It was very light. But it was just because I was so furious. It was more meant to teach her a lesson than anything else. Not like she complained.”

“But Shekhar How can you...?”

“Oh no Rajeev Sir. Don’t worry. I am not a monster or anything. It’s just that she’s so self involved and hardly cares for me and my needs. You know she’s a pure vegetarian. She doesn’t eat even eggs. But that doesn’t mean I have to turn vegetarian too right? So I get her half a kg of mutton and ask her to cook it for me. I got it cleaned and cut beforehand. I am not thoughtless, am I? But she says, ‘I can’t cook it Shekhar. I can’t touch mutton at all, and I get sick at the very smell of raw meat. But I will for sure sit at the table with you as you eat, give you company.’ I was so angry, I slapped her, very lightly of course, and said, you don’t want to cook for your husband? What kind of a wife can’t do this one simple task? Have I married her so I work while her highness graces me with her company? So I told her, even I won’t cook it, if you’ve got such a problem with this thing. And I just threw the mutton out. It was so horribly annoying. I mean, has your wife ever done such a thing sir?”

“But...”

“I’m sorry. Of course she hasn’t. Mrs. Sandhu seems quite lovely in fact. How many years has it been to your marriage sir?”

“Umm... about 16 years now. You’ve married recently I suppose? You seem quite young.”

“Yes, Sir. In fact I told my mother to find me a wife. And look what was the best she could come up with. I mean, do you know, Richa did not get a single penny from home upon our marriage. Don’t get me wrong, Sir. I am a man of principles. No one from my family even mentioned dowry. But isn’t it her duty, or rather her mother duty to be considerate enough. After all these our social norms. You never go empty handed to your husband’s house, do you? All she got was some jewellery and clothes, and a few gift items for my parents and me. Like we are some sort of charity cases.”

“Hmm...”

“Last week, she comes to me and tells me her brother needs a ‘small loan’ to cover his expenses for his Applications to Universities abroad. She tells me, she’s giving him a part of her savings which she claims he shall return later. Like I am supposed to believe that. I told her nothing doing. Keep your money with you. He will manage. So she tells me, she was not asking me, she’s just telling me because I am her husband and she thought it was her ‘duty’ to inform me. I got so angry. How can these young nothings talk to their husbands like that? I just lost my cool. Usually I am a very reasonable person, Sir. But when you a push a man’s buttons like this... What is one to do after all? So I set the record straight about her family. Her mother and brother just want to pawn off her, Sir. They are a good for nothing pair, who see her marriage to me as an investment nothing else. They must have thought, let us get her married to this guy who is doing well for himself in a renowned Ad agency and earning good money. Not only will she be happy but we could also get enough support. They know their daughter earns peanuts in front of me, currently. Just because you’ve got an MBA degree doesn’t mean you’ll be made the Managing Director straight away of some MNC na? Huh! I’m sure she and that family of hers knew she was worth nothing. Well, they are sadly mistaken. I may be a decent chap, but I take no bullshit. They are not getting a dime from me! In fact Sir, Don’t tell anyone else, but I had to even beat her a little bit that night, to knock some sense into her. I mean, she was being unnecessarily insistent and sometimes...well sometimes...I just lose my temper a little too much.”

“Shekhar...Uhh...I really have to get this work done now. So if you don’t mind...”

“Oh Yes Yes Sir! Please carry one. I am sorry. I just came in because I wanted to talk to someone. For some reason not many people in this office seem to like me too much. I mean, I am quite fond of you. You’ve been so welcoming and so understanding about...everything.”

“Thank you Shekhar. I’ll see you later then.”

“Yes Sir. See you at lunch? Alright then.”

*

“Excuse me Sir?”

“Ah! Shekhar...Uhh...I was just..”

“I can see you are having lunch Sir. Do you mind if I join you?”

“Umm...Alright. Please take a seat.”

“Thank you Sir. I’ve got Baingan ka Bharta today and I know it’s your favourite so I thought I’d come share it with you. Please have a bite sir, please.”

“Mmm...It’s very nice. Richa is an excellent cook.”

“Oh! She knew nothing initially. When we got married, the woman would serve me watery Daal and a gooey, slimy paste she would call a vegetable preparation. God knows she doesn’t cook meat. It took a few exhausting lessons, to teach her some stuff. You see I was away during college years in a flat, so I learned to cook myself then. So I passed on my knowledge to her then. Nothing a few light slaps won’t do, eh? Hehehe.”


*

“Oh My God! How could you let me believe this monstrosity of a human being was a good person?”

“I told you Sheila he was a bit off.”

“A bit off? Rajeev a bit off is Hunder, our servant, who talks to cats and stuff. You could call him off. This guy is just plain creepy. What a Male Chauvinist Pig he is!”

“I was a bit amazed when he said she irons his underwear.”

“I know. She’s an educated professional for God’s sake. What’s wrong with women today? Despite all the education they don’t stand up for their rights and speak up for themselves, against such bastards.”

“Now, Sheila relax. Maybe she has a genuine reason she’s not speaking up.”

“Like what Rajeev?”

“Like, maybe her mother has refused to support her if she leaves her husband. Her father has anyway passed away. She probably doesn’t want an added burden even as her brother is still studying for graduation or something, I think.”

“Oh C’mon. She has an MBA for heaven’s sake. You mean to say she can’t support herself? Even if Richa doesn’t get a big shot job initially she can earn enough to feed herself three square meals a day can’t she? At least it would be better for her than being subjected to such humiliation every day?”

“Sheila, a woman needs support not only financially, but even socially. Our society is still quite biased against separated or divorced women.”

“Whatever Rajeev. I still think a woman as educated as her needs to have enough sense to know her life, peace of mind and happiness are more important than some group of people’s fake cry for ‘honor’.”

“Hey I have an idea. I am too uncomfortable with dealing with these matters, you know it. But you are such an independent and strong woman. If you feel so strongly against this why don’t you contact this NGO you were telling me about the other day, the one you sought help from for Kamla, our previous maid? You could take a representative or two from that place and I’ll give you Shekhar’s address. Go find Richa and talk to her about this.”

“Yeah! I think that’s a good idea. I shall contact them tomorrow morning itself. Maybe she just doesn’t know how to begin getting away from this man’s crap. We could probably help her with that, right?”

“Yup. Now relax and take some rest. Tomorrow is a Saturday so you’re off from school right?”

“Yeah, thankfully.”

“So maybe you could call them up tomorrow morning around 10:00 am or so. And talk to them about this whole thing. Preferably go over tomorrow only and talk to Richa.”

“Hmm...Yeah I’ll do that.”

“Good. Now sleep alright. Goodnight honey.”

“Goodnight love.”

*

I stared at my face in the foggy mirror for a long time. The bruise on my forehead from last night’s beating, shone as if it was some sort of a medallion or something. I gazed at the shiner, standing with my hands pushing the wash basin down as I let it bear the weight of my arms, the shower spewing warm water in the bathing area that was separated by the green curtain. It was only when the bell rung, resounding loudly through the empty house that I was shaken out of my reverie.

I wondered who it could be at that hour. I glanced at the clock settled above the bathroom door and saw it was 11:00 am. I was a little taken aback when I realised I had been standing there in the same position for over 45 minutes now.

I hurriedly screwed shut the knob of the shower to stop the water flow, and grabbed my t-shirt which had been hanging from the towel rod next to the bathroom door. I pulled it on over my head, and quickly arranged my hair so that it flopped over the bruise to cover it up. Who knew who was at the door. I ran out to the main door, just as the third bell ran through the house.

I opened it slightly to see who it was. There were three women standing outside, smiling at me benevolently.

“Hi Are you Richa Shekhar Gupta?”

I nodded.

“I am Sheila Sandhu, your husband’s boss Rajeev Sandhu’s wife. May I please come in?”

I wondered what she was doing here, but I nodded and opened the door a little more to allow her in. She continued smiling at me and entered, as the two ladies behind her followed her in.

“Richa, this is Mary Gonsalves and Trishna Rajadhyaksha.

“Hello. Please make yourselves comfortable. I’ll get some water.”

I motioned politely to the couch in the sitting area near the entrance and went to the kitchen to get them some water, wondering what the hell this was all about. It didn’t seem like a casual visit. These women, impeccably dressed, clearly meant business. I thought for a second how I might be looking like a hag to them, but then I shrugged the thought away the next moment. I had bigger things to worry about.
I took the tray of water to them with a bowl of some namkeen as a polite gesture. Once they had each taken their glasses of water, I bent down to put the bowl of namkeen  onto the centre table. As I did so, I caught Sheila looking at me and her eyes flickering to my forehead. As she did so, she glanced towards the other two ladies and gently nodded. I caught the movement and worried she might have noticed my bruise. I went to the dining table to deposit the tray there and set my hair appropriately as I returned to the sitting area.

I took a seat on one of the folding chairs placed opposite the couch and placed my hands on my lap, joining them together in anticipation. What the hell did they want?

 After a moment, Sheila spoke.

“So Richa. How are you? How’s your job going?”

Oh God. Small talk. Needless small talk.

“Just fine. Thank you for asking ma’am.”

“Please call me Sheila.”

I smiled at her, hoping she would get to the point quickly. I decided to hasten the process.

“So what brings you here?”

After a few moments of hesitation and silence during which the three ladies shot uncomfortable glances at each other, Sheila finally decided to take the lead.

“We know Richa.”

“Know what?” I asked, though I had a bad feeling I knew what they were referring to.

“About your husband...umm...beating you.”

“What? My husband doesn’t do any such thing.”

“But...I have seen your bruise. It’s right there on your forehead.”

“I don’t mean to sound rude Sheila,” I said firmly, “but just because you see a shiner on my head you assume it’s because of a beating from Shekhar? I got this because I got pushed in the metro and I banged my head against one of the poles inside. That’s all.”

“Richa, Rajeev told me everything. Your husband Shekhar tells him about...your arguments.”

“Which couple does not have arguments? Yes, we too have our share of fights and disagreements, but that doesn’t have to mean he beats me. What a preposterous suggestion!”

“Look Richa,” Mary said, “You don’t have to be afraid. Trishna and I are from an NGO which deals with cases like yours. We have a lot of women who are victims of domestic violence coming to us for help and building a new life for themselves. We can help you financially and emotionally. We shall provide complete support and assistance to you on all fronts. You don’t have to be afraid of anyone. Not even your husband.”
“But I am not afraid. Nothing scary is happening to me. I am happy with my husband, thank you very much,” I said beginning to get irked now.

Then Trishna spoke to me, trying to persuade me. “I hope you are right. Because we have received stories to the contrary. If Mr. Shekhar Kamal abuses you in any way, any way at all, physically, mentally, sexually, you can turn to us for help. There is no need to be afraid.”

“I assure you three ladies that there is nothing of the sort happening, at the moment. If I am ever in need of your support I shall inform you. As of now, my husband does not beat me. He does not abuse me physically or in any other way.”

The three of them looked at each other hopelessly and then probably resigned to accept my stand on the matter, because then Sheila said, “Alright then Richa. I am sorry to bother you.”

I merely smiled. I was quite irritated by then.

I accompanied them to the door and bid them goodbye. Just before I shut the door, Sheila turned around and handed me a slip of paper on which there was a number scribbled.

“This is my contact number. Please call me day or night, if there is any need for any sort of assistance. Alright? There is no need to hesitate.”

“Thank you Sheila,” I smiled again and shut the door behind her.

I turned around and stared at the slip of paper in my hand.

I then proceeded towards the bathroom again. I threw the slip of paper in the dustbin in my room as I entered the bathroom and bolted it behind me. I took off my t-shirt again, and went and stood in front of the washbasin.

As I stared at the bruise on my forehead and the others on my back and around my waist, I smiled slightly, to myself. They would never understand. Few people might.

I did not have any problem. I just couldn’t tell them I enjoy the ‘beating’ my dear husband gives me, could I?

---END---



Sunday, July 31, 2011

Reservation: Is it being approached appropriately?

Reservation. The matter today synonymous with India has been much debated, discussed, argued for and against, and at the same time often avoided because of its sensitive nature. Article 15(1) of the Indian constitution states that the State shall not discriminate against anyone on the ground of sex, caste, race, religion, place of birth or anything. So it essentially grants equality to all, irrespective of their background - social or economic. But again, as per Article 15(4) it allows the State to make special provisions for the socially and educationally backward classes of citizens.

One can argue that the Constitution makers were seeing or foreseeing discrimination at various levels but this has turned into a very touchy topic. While I agree reservation is important, for many a times, people from ‘lower castes’ do not receive their due, are ignored or passed over which is not at all fair, especially in a country whose constitution stands for equality, isn’t it also important that for greener leaves, the roots must be strong? In our country, there is still a lack of basic education for all, while there is clamour for reservation in institutions for higher studies, which is kind of absurd.

Also, reservation just strengthens the caste and religious differences. There are chances of a psychological effect on people, and those trying to fight caste/religious differences and avoid discrimination on the basis of caste or religion are fighting a losing battle because reservation is merely strengthening those identities often compromising a more deserving candidate for one with a certain caste or religion’s certificate. So even if reservation needs to be done, there must a subtle, fair approach to it.

Imagine a scenario wherein a boy is trying for admission in a college. His father is an Engineer or a Senior Manager, his mother is a professor. He lives a comfortable life, not in the lap of luxury but most of his needs and wants are being catered to most of the times, and he has enough money to dispense for his needs and/or for his leisure. Now he gets very average marks in the 12th grade. But he gets admission into the college of his choice merely because he provides a caste certificate of belonging to an SC, ST or an OBC and there is reservation for people from this caste. So he manages to get a seat, and has a rebate in the fees.

Now imagine a scenario, where a boy’s father is carpenter, or a tailor, or even a peon in an office. His mother is a housewife who struggles to get in extra money to the household by taking up odd jobs such as at a construction site. They have three simple meals, even two at times. The father does not even have a scooter to transport him to work. But he does not manage to get admission to the college, despite his caste certificate (A) because he cannot afford even the rebated fees, and (B) because he has received low grades in the local school he went to where he was not taught proper English, which is often the medium of instruction at college/university level.

Who do YOU think deserves the reserved seat more?

Instead of reserving seats left, right and centre on the basis of religion or caste, there must be two changes:

  1. The education system at the basic level must be strengthened. The Right To Education Act has been passed indeed. But is it being rightfully implemented? Are children being sent to school by parents? If they are, are the teachers even there to teach them? And are the teachers doing their job with diligence? These are a few questions or issues that must be looked into by authorities and must be corrected. The foundation must be strong, only then will the child benefit from reservation. What will a child do with a reserved seat in say, a prestigious law college like NALSAR, when he doesn’t even read or understand Basic English and has no or little knowledge of the concepts of civics, and society?
  2. Reservation must not be merely on the basis of caste but take into account economically backward people. Once the educational basics are strong, those who are economically backward must be given a fair chance. A child may have to give up on his ‘reserved’ seat in a college merely because he is unable to afford even the discounted fees.

The issue of reservation is yet to be explored properly. The government and the authorities need to look into these and a few other pertinent issues. Also, while reservation is certainly essential in most areas, there must be a fair balance, which our vote bank driven politicians sadly fail to acknowledge!

SENSTIVITY AT A LOSS?

AASTHA KATYAL

Santosh Kumar (28) of Coimbatore, a young married man, with a little baby might never have even thought that his brutal death would invoke such little response and compassion by his city’s citizens. While he was being brutally thrashed and murdered at a traffic signal on July 10th, an event recorded by a hidden CCTV camera which led to the culprits being hauled up, nobody but nobody stopped to help him. People stopped at the signal and as it turned green sped off to their destinations, turning a blind eye to the horrific incident happening in front of them.

This tale makes me sick to my stomach. How can someone see somebody being so cruelly murdered in front of them and not even try to help? Is this what our people have become? Insensitive and numb to all sorts of horror so nothing effects them anymore? What is responsible for such numbness?

One reason could be the increasing openness with which news channels run gory, bloody pictures and videos of murder sites, bomb blasts victims, riots etc. The Hindu, a nationally acclaimed newspaper, put the photograph of the mangled remains of Rajiv Gandhi’s body after his assassination, which was a gruesome sight. When chided for this act, the Editor defended his decision by some valid arguments saying it was a true incident and so there was nothing wrong in presenting the truth to the public, and that the people would be aware of the barbarity of this assassination only through such hard hitting visuals. However, over the years, the media has not shied away from showing any grisly photograph or any ghastly video. While it hits the viewers/ readers and shakes them up to the reality and brutality of the world around them it has also led to a certain numbing of emotions. People are now so used to seeing such horrific sights that nothing shocks then anymore. Their threshold for tolerating such horrible scenes has increased manifold thanks to the desensitization process by the media.

Even the excessive violence we see in films today, with no holds barred, is responsible to an extent of numbing the people. This is a major cause of concern because if compassion and humanity are allowed to disappear, it can possibly spell disastrous consequences in the future. People will no longer be shocked by anything and would not realise the gravity of horrible occurrences.

Such a case brings to light the dire necessity for the media to exercise restraint on itself in showing grisly scenes and photographs. While truth must not be compromised but a sensitive approach must certainly be in place for every event. Otherwise what happened with Santosh Kumar, could happen on a larger scale tomorrow and I do not think anyone needs to spell out what that would result in eventually! (Please feel free to suggest what measures can be taken to prevent such desensitization and numbing of emotions from happening!)

OF EXCUSES AND EXPLANATIONS: A RECURRING SAGA FEATURING OUR ‘GREAT’ LEADERS!

AASTHA KATYAL

A day after the fateful Mumbai blasts happened on what is being called now “13/7” I was watching the news where I saw our dear Mr. Rahul Gandhi delivering a statement to the media, “It is impossible to stop bomb blasts. Who all will we check?”

As I pondered on this statement of his I thought it made sense. Yes, we are all angry. Yes, we all want viable results and soon. But it is indeed a bloody difficult task to keep a constant vigilant check in a country with a population of 121 billion and growing! He is partly right. Who all will we check and where all will we check. Maybe in organized places we can, for example in a place like a mall, or Dilli Haat or an event happening etc. It is possible to keep checks on such places for there can be a tab kept on who is entering with what and with whom. But in places like open markets like Zaveri bazaar for instance, Opera House, or a Lajpat Nagar in Delhi or a Hazratganj in Lucknow, there is no particular entry or exit point. Where will we check? Who will we check? How will we check?

But a while later, I realized that while this statement does seem valid enough, it is, in all probability, merely an excuse being used by the government to cover up their backsides. The most in-our-face example we all know, is the case of 9/11 attacks on the World Trade Centre in the US and what they did afterwards. They got their act together and how. One such failure, one attack and results COULD be seen. The attack employed the use of an aeroplane which flew into the building that unfortunate day – any particular entry point or exit point there? Not really. But, the US took measures, conducted rigorous investigations and rounded up the guilty (often even not so guilty for which they received much duly deserved flak) but the job was done.

However, let’s take a look at our nation now. The Varanasi blasts, the German Bakery blasts, the September 2008 serial blasts in New Delhi which was followed by the famous 26/11 terror siege in Mumbai – these are just few of the many, many blasts our country has witnessed over the years. Every time, innocent people suffer, anger simmers, people demand action, and authorities do a little something under public pressure, and while time moves on, the cases hardly do. How many cases can we say have been satisfactorily solved? Can we truly say our government and the concerned authorities have taken concrete steps to prevent further bomb blasts?

More so, when one hears jokers like Digvijay Singh make outrageous statements like “This attack (the 13/7 Mumbai serial blasts) has come after a gap of 31 months. Mumbai police is doing a good job,” and realises our dear leaders have no shame whatsoever; one feels even more discontented and livid. Instead of taking tangible steps like bringing about effective police reforms, bringing into place the Citizen Intelligence Network (CIN) a proposal to make ordinary citizens part of the intelligence gathering process [Refer to the TOI story http://bit.ly/pAIKsV ] and speeding up the hearing of such cases and ensuring that appropriate, effective and prompt punishment is meted out to the perpetrators, the government is sitting on its backsides banking on the ‘short lived memories’ of citizens and feeling comfortable in making statements like Union Home Minister P. Chidambaram made about there being no intelligence input about the Mumbai blasts but conversely adding that it was not an intelligence failure. Then whose failure was it Sir? The man who lost his livelihood thanks to his shop at Zaveri bazaar being reduced to smithereens due to the blasts, or the child who failed to foresee that he would lose his father if he went out to buy flowers at Kabootarkhana that evening, or then the woman waiting for a bus at Opera House to go back home after a long, hard day of work who is now battling for her life in the hospital?

And while, politicians scramble to cash in on the anger, resentment and outrage among the citizens trying to instigate communal passions (such as Janata Party President Subramanium Swamy did through his piece published by DNA on Saturday http://t.co/W7ZT9Wk on ‘How To Wipe out Islamic Terror’) by suggesting stupid, ridiculous and contemptible solutions as this ‘gentleman’ did, what we need is to turn a blind eye and a deaf ear to such people and concentrate on forcing the government to take suitable measures to deal with the issue of terrorism and not use it as another ploy to build vote banks and seize power. The unrest among people after 26/11 spun the authorities into action but soon, the simmering anger cooled down and people settled back into their monotonous existence, and so Kasab is still around and justice has yet not been delivered. We need to continue with the pressure and only then can we expect results. Otherwise, we can submit ourselves to the idea that this will continue to happen.

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

FIGHT FOR THE RIGHT

Aastha Katyal


As Indians who have strong family values and bonds -we know there is nothing worse than a family torn apart.
When a man or a woman is jailed, given a strict term such as life imprisonment or a death sentence, we
seldom think of the families they leave behind, if any. In case of notorious criminals and rapists, we hardly have any pity. “They got what they deserved. They asked for it.” Maybe, they did. But what about those who are imprisoned for nothing? What about those who are given strict sentences by the court for absolutely no fault of theirs, the judgement being based on ridiculous “evidence” and false, fabricated details?

Yes, I am talking explicitly about Dr. Binayak Sen, no one else. His case has grabbed so much of media attention over the past two months, ever since the Chattisgarh court sentenced him to life imprisonment on charges of sedition, his crime being a Maoist sympathiser.

What he had actually been doing, in fact, was his duty as a doctor. He had been treating Maoist leader Narayan Sanyal’s hand, in jail, under the supervision of the jailor and with his permission. It was during this time that he has been said to act as a courier between Sanyal and Piyush Guha, a businessman, and as a carrier of letters of correspondence between the two.

Dr. Sen, who is the General Secretary of PUCL [People’s Union for Civil Liberties], has been active as a human rights activist, working in the backward regions of Chattisgarh, for the tribals’ benefits. A documentary made by the acclaimed filmmaker Anand Patwardhan shows how he was among the few doctors, who worked in the back of beyond for the tribals and other locals of the state, in a hospital, that obviously did not pay him in gold, and yet he continued to strive for the welfare of his patients, often foregoing meals, carrying his young daughter with him to work, simultaneously looking after her.

A talk by Mrs. Ilina Sen, his wife, brought tears to my eyes and enraged me at the ridiculousness of his trial and the miscarriage of justice by the judiciary and the police – our supposed caretakers.

A few facts everyone must know with regard to his case, the trial and the judgement, something which the media refuses to pick up, discuss and debate:

a) The Judge was changed thrice. Not once, but thrice. And the Judge who ultimately gave the verdict was on probation.

b) The police in two of their documents submitted to the court mention two different places of arrest for Piyush Guha, something which instead of being looked into by the Judge, is brushed aside as a typing error!

c) The police did not come themselves to arrest Dr. Sen but when he got to know the police was going to be coming for him, he went himself to the police station to enquire into the matter and was thus arrested. Whoever has heard of a Maoist going himself to surrender to the authorities?

d) The police broke into their house and picked up minor, ridiculous details and tagged them to be anti-national or anti-governement. For instance, Ilina Sen, Dr. Sen’s wife had received a forwarded mail in her inbox mentioning as an acronym ISI which actually stood for something completely different and referred to a harmless institute, but was taken to be Pakistan’s intelligence service, and thus Mrs. Ilina Sen was said to have links with the ISI!

e) The Sens had, in their home computer, files and junk like any other family would have. They also had mails in their inbox from friends – Hindus, Christians and Muslims alike. But every mail from any Muslim person was blown out of proportion and thus they were termed to be in correspondence with “terrorists” if you please!

f) An article in Open magazine, Volume 2, Issue 43 dated 31 January, 2011 by Priyanka Borpujari talks of how Aparajita, Dr. Sen’s younger daughter’s algebra notebook was seized by the Chattisgarh police, as they suspected it might contain Maoist code.

All these incidents not only highlight the sad state of affairs as far as the justice system in our country is concerned but also the ridiculousness of the police while gathering evidence, the clear manipulation of the court, the lax attitude with which this trial was approached, and the gross fabrication of evidence by the “lawmakers”.

All this constitute not even half of the atrocities committed by those in authority upon Dr. Sen and his family in the process of his trial.
While the media has its own reasons of not covering these aspects of the matter – be it editorial policy or vested interests (we all know what they might be!) – these points are not known to the millions of people out there who are being fed the gov
ernment propaganda as far as the case and its details are concerned.

Dr. Sen too is a family man, and while I would never appeal to the public to consider such things for any other criminal, an important point to be noted is that Dr. Sen is NOT a criminal but a doctor, and a human rights activist who raised his voice against state atrocities upon common, vulnerable people through movements like Salwa Judum and Operation Green Hunt and thus is paying the price of his efforts. The mere fact that he has been given a sentence as harsh as life imprisonment for an offence which usually guarantees not more than 3 years of imprisonment is widely being speculated as an effort on the part of the government to shut him up.

I have seen personally the tears in the eyes of Mrs. Ilina Sen and her younger daughter Aparajita Sen, as the former spoke to us about these horrific acts of the government, the police and the judiciary and believe me, they are NOT fake. I have sensed the helplessness of a woman who has been fighting a battle for the truth, for her husband’s innocence against vile authorities for months and years now, and do not want her to give up. But a person can do only so much all on their own.

While she has the support of her friends, family, co-workers, and many renowned personalities like Mr. Anand Patwardhan himself, what she and the entire family needs is our support. We, the common people, need to wake up and fight for Dr. Sen. We need to fight for the right, fight against the corrupt system that exists today, fight against the atrocities committed by the state and the police on common people. And this is a fight we cannot afford to lose, for today it is them, tomorrow it could be us!